Allowing myself to be a rock which be shattered easily. How to listen to something fundamentally fabulous and go back to your work after five minutes? Dispassion. Self learning is a dangerous practise. One can keep converting things one sees into alliterations-joined-at-the-edges and draw conclusions. Can one just lie back, relax, listen and put things in the information drawer without thinking of them again? I can't.
I am a charged banana. I beleive in taking things to heart. The heart needs extra barricades here. Why do we seek top be professional - so that our work becomes more important than us. So that instead of nimble someones trying to do something - we become executing agents of a particular agenda. If we select one path and go go go, we are bound to be successful. Selecting one path - me? I am a multi-tasker. I need to let some kites fly loose, else my kites will start cutting the other.
That will be end of destiny. Death would be one dream clashing into another, till you are left absolutely anxious and incurable.